i shouldn't be alive

because i dont pay attention when i drive. i do sometimes, but sometimes i do not. today i was on the freeway and noticed a little mountain or giant hill that was perfectly flat on top and i thought, "what the hell?!" i couldnt stop looking at it then realized that i didnt know how far i'd driven or how long it'd taken me. i do this ALL THE TIME. i am moved to distraction at every turn, bend, and stretch and i shouldn't be alive. i have never crashed, and i dont put it to skill, its pure luck or god's will or whatever. i look at people all the time. i day dream all the time. i practically fall asleep all the time. moreover, my friends shouldn't be alive. any one of you who has been passenger in my car for more than 10 minutes or at least on the freeway, be thankful! you shouldn't be alive.
-emily