some day your internet will come again,carmen, until then there is aged apple pie

i got some apple pie from the refrigerator and microwaved it a little and it tastes burnt sometimes. mostly i just like the apple parts but it would seem incomplete without the top crust and the edge crust, the edge crust is what tastes burnt. i mostly get top crust, which tastes like crust, and sometimes, i mix the top crust with an apple part and its a different experience altogether. i used to hate apple pie when i was younger. i wanted simplicity and i just liked pumpkin pie without crust at all. or cheesecake, especially since it had limited crust which was acceptable. when i hated apple pie, i listened to blink 182, and got it. it was simple, it was straight forward and approachable and had bad shit that made me feel good to be so bad and listen to bad shit. then i grew up and got smarter. i believe at this time i tried banana cream pie, without whipped cream, and that was complex as fuck to me. i felt older eating this pie, with its crust and bananas and stuff between the bananas and the whipped cream on the side that i scooped off. i didnt eat the whipped cream, it was stupid like the spice girls were stupid but still there on the side if i moved them. today i listened to the silver jews again on the way home and when i got there i decided to eat the apple pie that was miraculously in my refrigerator . they are the same, silver jews and apple pie. there is the burnt edge, the crust that is not the best, but there and necessary, like being sad or sad and mad at the same time. and there are the apples and the stuff around the apples, the gooey caramelized apple part that brings relief to the entire thing and is the part you are waiting for, the good part that you wait for when its microwaving, and the reason i wanted apple pie in the first place. of course im not forgetting the top crust, which is relief to the two extremes and is like normal life, its always there between the sweet apples and the burnt edge, you, you get some pies that are not so good, like if the whole thing is burnt or the apples arent that sweet. i like the idea of complicated apple pie now im old, but not always, i mean not every one, i mean all apple pies are different, like all silver jews songs are different. you have to skip some things sometimes. you have to eat pumpkin pie again sometimes too.